November 25. 2004 22:30

Buried under a sudden workload...

I'm getting really anxious now. And it makes me depressed. Everyone's been working really hard on their manga at school, so I was worried about the deadline. I mentioned it to Patty, the American fourth year at Story Manga, and she read the text about the dealines on the blackboard for me. The children's manga we're doing in full color has to be ready by December 6th and the wagashi manga is December 8th. ._. I've worked on the children's manga diligently at school, but I haven't even finished sketching, not to mention started colouring it. And the wagashi manga, I haven't given it a single thought since I started the NaNoManga. That means I have about a week to finish the NaNoManga and the children's manga and then a couple of days to do the wagashi thing... Sigh. But nobody else is done with their group projects either, so I think that can go a bit over the deadline...

But what this means is that I won't have time to take a breath after the NaNoManga like I tought I would. I'll have to continue full days with the children's thing straight away... I don't really mind doing that, I love devoting myself for something for a while, but I had already planned on doing other things. Big sigh. They'll either have to wait, which is not possible with the things that involve other people, or I'll have to work on them at night when I come back from school. I know neither of those options is gonna make me very happy. I hate when I have to think "I'll get to do that next week" and I really hate it when I have to push trough another projects in the evening when I've spent the whole day working at school. But I guess there's no helping it, there are other people who are waiting for my work. I guess I can endure it for a couple of weeks again.

And then there were the disappointing news about Heidi leaving next week. I was under the impression that she'd be here for at least two more weeks, but now I heard she's leaving already. I haven't seen her for a while again and I really wanted to spend a little more time with here before she goes away... But now she's so busy with schoolwork I don't think she has any time to spare for going out. It's really a shame, after she left the dorm I really couldn't spend as much time with her as I wished.

I also wish I could spend more time studying Japanese and making friends in class. I had a small talk about what I'm going for with my Japanese studies, since Inui-sensei had had some misunderstandings about what I knew already and couldn't decide a curriculum for me. After talking with her I again felt so bad that I'm not taking more advatage of this unbeatable opportunity to learn Japanese... I got a new inspiration, especially because I realized I can buy the next Minna no nihongo study book here (What have I been thinking? I'm in the land those books are from, of course I should buy the next volume now!). But this sudden change of plans with the deadlines that creep up on me from the behind changed all again... In fact, I'm kinda thinking that I shouldn't go to Japanese class next week, 'cause I really need all the time I can get to finish the manga...

Basically life is going well, though, regardless of this sudden workload. I felt really good at school today, taught the 3D teacher how to preset those animation point handles in 3ds Max, and did some more NaNoManga. I felt really horrible for a while when I was thinking about all the things I have to do that are still mid-way, but then I managed to forget all that during Matt-sensei's class. Also, I got some comments on my NaNoManga from Patty, which made me a bit more insecure about it again, but I'll just work it through like it is now and continue thinking about it when this is all over. Right now I don't want to worry about that, too. The NaNoManga is almost finished, just some details and effects to ink, making the title page and then putting text in, and then it'll be ready. I really need to think a name to it, though, I still haven't....

Now I'm gonna finish sorting the pictures I've selected to be put up in the Internet, because that's one of the things that are mid-way and I really want to finish it. It'll at least make me feel like I've accomplished something... And then there's English homework, oh god, almost forgot about it again... I really wouldn't want to spend time on other homework than these projects we have, but there's no helping it >_< Off to work, then...