January 13. 2004 22:20

Lazyness

Ah, I don't feel like doing anything. I finished my essays, all but the Media Art one, the day before yesterday. So now I have nothing to do, or at least nothing to hurry about. That's rare for me and makes me feel a bit weird O_o Dion is still writing his papers so I can't go bother him, so I've been sitting home and doing more work (or "work") since I have nothing else to do. Doesn't that sound a bit weird? My afternoons are all free and what do I do? Go home, sit at the computer and do whatever work I can come up with. I did some Japanese reviewing, arranged my e-mails, prepared a bit for the Media Art report and started integrating my portfolio site into my main site Yumegokochi. Yes, I think I'm weird, too.

I must say that the website thing doesn't feel like real work, though. (Hence the "work" mention before.) Making web pages makes me happy ^__^ I've been thinking about getting rid of that extra portfolio site I have because it's just stupid to have two sites with overlapping content. The reason I ever made that site was because it was an assignment in school and because Yumegokochi is in English and I needed a Finnish portfolio. But I never update it, so it's no use as a portfolio, and so I thought I might just get rid of it, even if it meant no service for the Finnish speakers. I started the work some half a year ago, but it required writing a lot of comments for the images, so I never got too far with it. Yesterday I decided to tackle it, with all the hours of "nothing to do" I had. Now it's finished and ready to go online as soon as I finish a place where I can dump my comics. (I don't want the comics to be in Yumegokochi, they don't fit in there and I can make a site that works a lot better for reading them. And I want to get rid of the comic category before I add another one for the work&school related art.)

Today I sat at the CG class and surfed some art pages in the Internet (because I finished my animation 45 minutes early) and then went to the school cafeteria for dinner. I realized anew what a nice place that is to eat and hang at, it's comfy and there are lots of people around to make me feel "connected" ^_^ I still have a little rice and one portion of udon noodles left, but after that I don't want to buy another bag of rice (I wouldn't be able to finish it before I leave) so I might start going to the school cafeteria every day. ^_^

Lately I've felt a strange, enormous need to draw. I've suddenly started to find it very difficult to have an English conversation, but I feel like there is something inside me that I want to express, though I don't know what exactly it is and how to express it. And drawing is a way to let some of that out. I've also started using my walkman again (I bought batteries to it now that I know I won't be getting that adapter anymore), mostly because I was annoyed by how Dion doesn't understand resting one's eyes on something (did I explain that?) and I needed something to distract me. Avril Lavigne and the Matrix soundtracks are a great way of dealing with anger and annoyance. I find Matrix music really relaxing.

*Yawn*... I guess I could do that Media Art report now. As I thought, the subjects are so interesting that I have no difficulties writing about them. I started at the library today, during a free period. I wrote for about an hour (with Notepad!! They don't have Word at the library!!) and it's already 1 A4 long. And I only covered a tiny part of the themes. The themes are 1) two of the film/video works shown at class and 2) my opinions about some characteristics of film and video in the digital age. I wrote half-way about one film and then about 3D and a bit about post-production. I could write the whole report about the use of 3D in movies, but I think I should try and contract that part a bit and write about some other characteristics as well... Well, anyway, I think I could finish a theme that easy tonight, and then I wouldn't have to worry about any schoolwork anymore.

Ahaha, I just got the lenght of the report from the teacher. It's 1 page of each subject. I think I'm going to write more than that, whatever I try :)